a musing: derivations of a non-conformist idealist

this shouldn’t be long.  as there are infinitely numerous personal definitions of love, there are also as many variations, for as many people who experience it, to mending one’s broken heart.  and as one goes through his or her two or three or five or eight or twenty steps towards healing and acceptance, there may [...]

we never know.  we never know when we’ll be blessed with someone to love.  we never know if that someone we love loves us back.  if it’s the same intensity.  will it be after 26 years of living?  32?  would you find someone who loves you more?  or would you be the one who loves [...]

it’s been a little worse this week having to skip work for three days to nurse a fever and when one is alone in bed with sleep not setting in, there’s nothing else to do but think and reminisce; and too much thinking or too much alone time is never recommended when nursing a broken [...]

love is a spirit, a god, a supernatural entity, a mystery, a state of mind which most need to define or explain so as to prove its actual existence. it can be through physical expression, emotional investment, conscious commitment, contractual agreement, or even shiny stones and metallic objects. however, as spirits, gods, supernatural [...]

here it is. the first strip of doodiebear+poopsterton. poopsterton first appeared last post in the blackest night. and doodiebear appears here for the first time. they’re both bears. sadly, this strip now only documents their short but memorable commitment. i don’t know how long i can keep this going. [...]

yesterday, we broke up. one year, six months, and several days from july 2, 2007. i arrive home, lock myself in my room, and bury myself under the comforter. sleep, come. please. but we don’t get what we want all the time obviously. i toss and turn. and [...]