a musing: derivations of a non-conformist idealist

by jaybeecc, 2010, pastel on canvas

Last year, via the charity-cd project HERE GOING LOST, we were able to raise P6,000 to give to CRIBS Orphanage.  This year, we’d like to ask for everyone’s generosity again, but this time in just donating PENCILS for elementary students in financially challenged schools and communities.
I have not yet finalized the beneficiaries but the target [...]

Saw a music CD sale at the mall.  My office-mate did some picking for me- mostly singing contest finalists or winners.  I got 7 CD’s all for P400 only!  That’s not even $9!  The three I picked were Pink, Sandi Thom, and Ryan Dan.  I love Pink but I’m not familiar with this particular album [...]

Milestone.  One of my youtube videos reached 3000 views after just under 13 months.  Funny, huh.  It’s not like it went viral with millions of views.  Still.  Thanks to all who viewed and liked it enough to leave nice comments.  Thanks to everyone who still viewed and finished the clip despite me not really being [...]

I’m writing a new 3-song album.  Titled “Wish You Well”, it should contain 2 new-new songs, 1 old-new song, plus a new-old song.  (And maybe the old-old always-in-the-CD’s-because-everybody-likes-it– “No Goodbyes”.  Really, it’s not saying goodbye.)  The new-old song is “Let Me”, a friendship song that appeared in the first CD compilation, “Let Love”.  I’m planning [...]

Am proud to present our group’s entry to the cultural dance video contest for our company’s capability All-Hands meeting.  At the draw of which cultural dance each group will be assigned, we got the “Sayaw sa Banga/Palayok” or dance of the clay jar/pot.  Each group would have to dance to a modern song and we [...]

The following is an unfinished short story I began writing in September 1997.  It’s about a childless couple who came into possession of a sweet cat who might change their lives forever.

There once was a couple living in an old apartment on a dead-end street at the edge of the [...]

I don’t know if it’s just coincidence but my Friendster account doesn’t open anymore since yesterday. Could it have sensed I was registering on Facebook?  I don’t know if there’s something wrong with that account.  Hopefully there isn’t and it’s just a temporary glitch.  When my blogger blog got bombed by that false-positive suspicious-site thing, [...]

Jan. 30, 2005
i’m a little off
because i see i’m changing
doing things i don’t normally do,
feeling things i don’t normally feel,
and i’m expecting something for myself
that i shouldn’t
confused
when the only logical explanation
is something that can hardly be explained–
when you know you feel it, love
but you’re questioned
how can you be sure of what you’re feeling?
and you can’t [...]

Last Valentine’s was a particularly enriching day.  I was invited to sponsor a child at my officemate’s son’s birthday party held at Tahanan ng Pagmamahal in Pasig.  All I had to do was show up with presents for the sponsored child.  (It was a little difficult to shop for a dress and panties for a [...]